I was driving to work this morning and minding my own business - lost in my own thoughts and following a small two door hatchback car. I was actually contemplating what I'm not happy with in my life and what I need to do to change the things that I'm not happy with. It's a long drive after all and lots of thinking time.
We were stopped at traffic lights to turn right when all of a sudden this person in the car in front of me decided that there was enough room for them to turn directly in front of the double semi trailer coming in the opposite direction.
No, I'm not going to tell you a gruesome car accident story (aren't you glad) because the driver of the hatchback made it with a hairs width between him / her and the truck. The truck driver didn't even attempt to brake it was that close. I was certain he was going to hit the car to the extent that I'm sure my heart actually stopped and my hands actually did fly up to my face in horror.
It was only after this near miss in front of me that I realised that had the truck hit the car it probably would have slammed the car back into me and it would have been 'messy'. Real messy. It made me wild with the driver of the car, not to mention that it took me several moments for my heart to restart. I can only imagine how the truck driver felt as he continued down the road.
What's my point for telling this story - nothing earth shattering, I just wanted to share my own terror. It also made me realise that some people must have hard working guardian angels watching over them. I believe we are all here for a purpose, some of us are gone way too quick, some of us defy all odds and near misses to go on and do what we were put on this earth to do.
I want to count, I want to make a difference, I'm just not sure what I'm here for yet. My little near miss reminded me this morning that life is tenuous, we have to keep cranking the handle and moving along. As Louise put it this morning in her post - 'there's no going back'. We have to keep moving onward and upward and discovering what we're really here for.
Our purpose doesn't need to be earth shattering or ground breaking, it just needs to be right for us. So have you discovered 'why you're here yet?'
A week of change management training this week is really causing me to stop, look and discover - about me and about those around me. It's going to be an interesting week. Hope yours is also one of discovery.
People often say that this or that person has not yet found himself. But the self is not something one finds, it is something one creates ~ Thomas Szasz