Ready or not...here comes change

Holding on with a death grip to what is familiar and comfortable can be just as restrictive as it is comforting.

Sometimes you just have to throw it out to the universe and trust. Trust that what is meant to be will be, and then trust that everything will work out the way it is meant to.

Fortunately I'm getting better at doing this, I still have a ways to go but I'm slowly getting there.

As a somewhat 'a' type personality who likes to be in control of situations this can be challenging for me. At the same time, trusting that things will work out and taking action go hand in hand. You can't sit on your butt and expect everything to just happen, you still have to do something, anything.

Once upon a time (yeah okay, so this is no fairytale) I used to make myself sick with stress. I wouldn't sleep, I wouldn't eat and I'd drive myself crazy with ridiculous thoughts. Did it change the outcome - not one little bit.

A family member is going through some upheaval, unfortunately he's no stranger to change but he's learning to look at it with some of my optimism and consider all the other times when he's always landed on his feet.

I know deep down that this is the best thing for everyone involved, even if at this exact moment the light at the end of the tunnel is not quite visible. I know it's there, I just have to be patient and trust that soon I'll be able to see it.

I'm rapidly discovering that change is a monumental hurdle which some people fight against because they know no other way. It's their security blanket - they need the structure and balance and no waves. Life simply isn't like that.

There's a certain level of irony that my job involves a great deal of change management and dealing with people's uncertainty and fears. My former boss's favourite saying was 'Change is fine as long as it's happening to someone else'. I think I'd rather it be me going through upheaval than a family member, but again life's not like that.

Tomorrow I'm back to work, although one more week to allow that light at the end of the tunnel to show itself would have been nice, but it is what it is. I know I have a couple of extremely busy months ahead of me at work, including a trip interstate next week to create miracles.

I'm visualising good things (my word for 2013 after all). Life will change, life will improve and amazingly awesome things lie ahead.

My mantra at the moment is visualise and then trust, what's yours?