I did tell you yesterday that I've been in a FUNK, well I'm also in the middle of having a few A-HA moments which aren't too gentle either.
I work in change management, I coach people regularly on the fact that you have to be the change you want to be and that a person will only accept change when their heart and soul is a part of it.
I spout about the changes I want in my life and while I talk the talk, I don't always walk the talk. In other words while I say and mean things in my heart and my mind, my actions (body) don't always agree.
I procrastinate, I make excuses, I avoid the truth and I lose myself in mindless blather. I read blog posts and e-books about avoidance and life and think 'oh my that's me, that's what I do' and I don't feel so alone because everyone else is also avoiding the truth and they're also not facing down challenges and achieving their goals.
I started this blog coming up almost two years ago (time flies when you're having fun) because I was stuck in a rut and needed to find my way out of a miserable job. I did find my way out, but not enough that I spread my wings and really flew. I just changed one rut for another and spend the rest of my time moaning and groaning about everything and everyone.
I read something yesterday (okay so I do learn some useful things from blog posts and e-books) which stated that those who criticise others are often the ones who are envious that they are not doing the same kind of things. Case in point - our 'new look' company magazine, written by someone new who has absolutely no writing experience or education.
In essence it's new, bright, shiny and visually appealing but there's a few things that are problems in my eyes. The reality is though, she's got the job and she will learn from her mistakes. I don't have the job and I too will learn from her mistakes, but I have no real basis for criticising other than envy. Well I do but it won't achieve anything - Argghhh!
Two fellow blogger friends have or are currently making BIG changes in their lives this year. How brave and inspiring you both are. I need to find that strength within myself. I know it exists, I've seen it once or twice over the years. It's just been a long while though since it really showed its face. My parents and my brother and sister-in-law have also done the big and brave and bold.
But then, I don't think change even needs to be big and bold, it just needs to be for the better.
Bravery and strength - Come out, come out, where ever you are. I'm almost ready for you.
No more criticising, moaning, procrastinating or any other negative non-productive like behaviour is allowed. I will not only talk the talk, I will walk the talk also. I have a couple of things in mind to focus on. Stick around, I may even share my triumphs in the months to come.
What do you need to change most and what's holding you back?