Say goodbye to winter - hurry up spring

August has been a hard month - so roll on September and the beginning of Spring. For me, August has been a month better forgotten, a month of wasted days, in fact a frustrating month.

My breathing had deteriorated so badly on Thursday night and into Friday, that despite putting in an appearance at work on Friday morning, I probably shouldn't have bothered.

I was back at the doctor on Friday afternoon (my third visit in as many weeks) and basically I sat in her office and cried because that's how bad I felt.

The doctor has now put me on a super dooper strength antibiotic and also steroids - Ticklebear mentioned that over a week ago (I should have listened then). Friday night I had 14 hours of broken sleep and then another 3 hour nanna nap yesterday afternoon. Eight hours of broken sleep last night and finally today I'm feeling a little bit normal, aside from the fact that if you shake me I now rattle from the number of medications I'm taking.
 
I'm hoping to actually sleep in my own bed tonight, after three weeks of sleeping upright on the lounge, it will be a treat. It's amazing the things we take for granted - like our health. I never normally get sick; a slight sniffle, a bit of a headache occasionally but never wiped out enough to stay in bed sick or with anything which takes 3 weeks to get on top of.
 
I've always pushed on through, which I'm sure many of us do and I've always bounced back before. This time I was finally forced to listen to my body which in truth has been screeching loudly for weeks. It's been a big wake up call, a lesson in paying attention to what my body is saying.
 
Today is a go slow day, I'm resting and doing very little else. The truth is I feel like all I've done for the last few weeks is rest and go slow. My youngest MM is an absolute treasure and if I could bottle his blood and sell it I would. He's done most of the clothes washing and housework for the last 3 weeks, how do you get lucky enough to get a child like that?
 
I feel like my positivity is coming back in some small measure. Spring is rapidly approaching and our new office building has beautiful outdoor areas, plus there's a library right next door which I have yet to explore, the project team will come together a week from tomorrow and my communication role looks set to kick into high gear. Lots of things to look forward to, including my returning good health.
 
I'm looking at options for a whole new healthier me because I'm listening to my body. Kicking the smoking habit was the beginning, now it's about developing healthier eating options (not that I eat badly anyway) but lots of wholesome good food. 
 
I even went and bought myself a blender so I can make fruit smoothies, my three week giving up smoking gift to myself. With all the medication and illness, I know that my body is desperately in need of some detoxing. But slowly does it, I know.
 
Hope you're all staying healthy. My thoughts are with those of you who are battening down the hatches this weekend with hurricane Irene approaching the east coast of the US. Stay safe and be healthy everyone.
 
Cheers, Fi
 
I love feeling the crispness of fall and the sensuality of spring. ~ Christopher Meloni