So I have plenty of revision and revamping to be done, although the website is probably mirroring my life at the moment as well. I'm not really sure that I know what I want to be when I grow up either.
Is it possible to reach 41 years of age and still not be sure what you really want to do with your life? Dissatisfaction in my professional life seems to be at the core of my discontent at the moment.
I'm used to moving at warp speed, having plenty to do and feeling like I make a difference. I haven't felt like that in longest time. Part of that was the reason for building my website and starting to find some focus in what I'm doing, I still have some way to go it seems.
On a more positive note, my next book is in the final stages of the first draft. Non fiction this time, not fiction - which is a big change. I'm starting to feel that another fiction book needs to be back on the agenda as well. I've made a couple of starts but nothing has really grabbed my fancy or inspired me.
Focus and structure - I seem to have lost both recently. I need a big shakeup to regain my creativity and mojo. I need to make a difference and feel like I'm doing something worthwhile.
The Universe must have been listening to my moaning recently, because a fellow co-worker is on 5 weeks leave from tomorrow for emergency surgery and recovery time and I'm picking up a good portion of her job. Not that I would have wished that on her, I have only happy, get well quickly thoughts to send her way.
Not sure how good I'm going to be at corporate property management in one of our busiest times ever. Several hours of knowledge transfer today and my brain is in overload.
The greatest advice I've ever received was that when in doubt the best thing to do is 'fake it till you make it'. So I think I'm going to be doing a bit of faking in the coming weeks to get me through a job that I have no idea about.
So where is everyone else at with knowing what they want to do with their lives? Does it change, do you go from being certain about what you thought you wanted, to suddenly having no real clue?