Tuesday, May 21, 2013

Fake it 'til you make it

I'm not good with receiving criticism, even when it's constructive criticism and was asked for. Does anyone ever like being told they could do something better? It seems that my website is a little bit confused about what it wants to be when it grows up.

So I have plenty of revision and revamping to be done, although the website is probably mirroring my life at the moment as well. I'm not really sure that I know what I want to be when I grow up either.

Is it possible to reach 41 years of age and still not be sure what you really want to do with your life? Dissatisfaction in my professional life seems to be at the core of my discontent at the moment.

I'm used to moving at warp speed, having plenty to do and feeling like I make a difference. I haven't felt like that in longest time. Part of that was the reason for building my website and starting to find some focus in what I'm doing, I still have some way to go it seems.

On a more positive note, my next book is in the final stages of the first draft. Non fiction this time, not fiction - which is a big change. I'm starting to feel that another fiction book needs to be back on the agenda as well. I've made a couple of starts but nothing has really grabbed my fancy or inspired me.

Focus and structure - I seem to have lost both recently. I need a big shakeup to regain my creativity and mojo. I need to make a difference and feel like I'm doing something worthwhile.

The Universe must have been listening to my moaning recently, because a fellow co-worker is on 5 weeks leave from tomorrow for emergency surgery and recovery time and I'm picking up a good portion of her job. Not that I would have wished that on her, I have only happy, get well quickly thoughts to send her way.

Not sure how good I'm going to be at corporate property management in one of our busiest times ever. Several hours of knowledge transfer today and my brain is in overload.

The greatest advice I've ever received was that when in doubt the best thing to do is 'fake it till you make it'. So I think I'm going to be doing a bit of faking in the coming weeks to get me through a job that I have no idea about.

So where is everyone else at with knowing what they want to do with their lives? Does it change, do you go from being certain about what you thought you wanted, to suddenly having no real clue?

Cheers, Fi


  1. I have to wonder if any of us ever REALLY knows what we want out of life. It is truly a constant adventure. I have a situation at work where I may have an opportunity to stay in the education field but come out of the classroom. Three years ago I would have told you that was a totally insane idea that would never happen. Now I am wondering exactly what path I need to take. I say, don't force any decisions, but do what feels right. Life hands us all sorts of choices and opportunities, and the key is to enjoy whatever it is you do.

    1. Some days I could do without the adventure- but yeah I agree with what you're saying :-)

  2. Going to be 48 this year. Is it too late to be a star on Broadway? : )Probably. But that doesn't mean I can't pick up a paintbrush again when the kids are gone. We wind but we wind our way.

    1. If I may reply to this. Given that Susan Boyle started at 47, I say it's never too late. Just find a good stylist before going to audition:


    2. I'd even come to the US to see you on Broadway

  3. Ah, my dear!! I thought I had my act together in my 30s, with two jobs I loved. One, the company went bankrupt, and the other, well, a work related accident forced me into some new functions, taking me away from what I loved. It's got its perks, but it is not stimulating and I work alone most of the time... I can do that, no problem, but I miss having people around and feeling that what I do matters to someone. I say, it is when you feel certain about something that it's just about to change in someway. Don't take anything for granted and enjoy the ride. Various experiences have taught me different things I wouldn't have learned otherwise, and I met some great people along the way. I would perhaps not have chosen for things to go this way, but that's how it happened, and that's that!! If work is not fulfilling you, try finding something on a more personal level. Your books may be the thing Life wants you to focus on. I know I have my photography to keep me happy. Life doesn't revolve solely around work, you know...


    1. Yeah my books are what I love most and you're right life doesn't revolve around work - thank god. However I'd still like to feel a little more worthwhile, it's hard when you know what something is like and then it's gone - but I'm sure that's what you're talking about above


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