Tomorrow I'll be perfect...today I'll just be me

Sixty five days since I last wrote words on this page, which is definitely the longest time I've gone without writing words here since 2010 when I started writing this blog.

Did the world stop turning, no, did the sun stop coming up, no. Yes everything basically continued as it normally does.

and yet...everything changed.

Strangely enough it does once you start really looking at yourself, and your beliefs, your behaviours, your life. How many years of my life have I been striving for perfection? Nearly all of them. Or how long have I not wanted to start something because it wasn't quite the right time. Only since forever.

and yet...sometimes for some of us, tomorrow never comes.

If we all wait until we're a little bit smarter, a little bit wealthier, a little bit happier, even a little bit more ready....then we may never start. We may never have the opportunity.

I've grown and learnt more about me in the last 6 months than I have in the last 43 years. Do you remember when your parents were that age and you thought how incredibly old they seemed? Yeah, it doesn't seem that old once you get there yourself. Yet if I could have had this last 6 months 20 years ago, think of where I could be today.

But whether you're 20, 40 or even 60, it's never to late to be, do or have that thing that you've been waiting for the time to be perfect for. Do you have a dream? If it's not big enough to scare the crap out of you then it's probably not big enough.

Go on, I dare you to dream big, so big that it does scare the crap out of you and then I double dare you to take one small step towards achieving it.

I've taken the first step to work with a life coach because I know I need that nudge (read that as kick in the pants) to really step outside of my comfort zone and reach for the stars. My dreams are huge and scary big and the only thing which stands between me and them is in my head - my thoughts, my beliefs and my behaviours that maybe I'm not ready, maybe I might not succeed.

and yet...the greatest successes in life are where we fall down, pick ourselves back up and keep moving forward.

So today I'll just be me and tomorrow I'll be perfect and if by some chance tomorrow never comes, then that's okay too -  because being me is just fine and I no longer need to be an idealised version of perfect which has kept me safely within my comfort zone for way too long.

So keep dreaming, or perhaps start dreaming bigger, but either way - just begin.

Cheers, Fi